May 2011
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Randomness
I have so much energy I’m shaking. It might not be energy, but it feels like it.
I have a massive headache, but I’m trying to detox away from all meds until I get my insomnia in check.
The Oreo Fudge Cream commercial where the lady says, “Shut the front door” cracks my shit up every fucking time I hear it.
I don’t like edges of brownies, there I said it. I...
Update From Last Nights Post
I ended up being awake for 25 hours
I got just under 4 hours sleep last night or rather this morning.
I’m not droggy or anything, I’m wide the fuck awake.
FML
Truthful It's Fucking Early Monday
This is night 2 of no medication whatsoever, not even melatonin.
I’ve been awake now for over 23 hours. I worked a 12 hour shift at the house of stressful Hell Saturday and then did another 12 hours Sunday at my normal house. I should be in a coma right now from everything in all honesty.
My mind is running a 100 MPH right now.
I’m not tired.
I have this weird amount of energy...
Send Nutella
I was woke up before the sun was out to be informed I’m working my 12 hour shift today at the house I’ve been attacked in more times then I care to remember. Remember my near loss of any eyeball 2010? My nerves are so frazzled my mind is sending the stress to my stomach and it won’t stop growling. (No way logically should I be hungry, my brain is a cunt.)
The lady I was...
Cloudya: How would you like to be loved? →
pikkutiikeri:
Today I’ve got nothing. Except this, the best damn thing I’ve read all day.
cloudya:
Wouldn’t it be nice if people asked you that right off the bat? Like, “How would you like your steak?”
Then you could be all, “I’m a bit of a mess right now. I would like to be treated gently and carefully. But I don’t want to feel like you think I’m high maintenance. I would like you to...
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Vague Truthful Thursday
You all know I’m lacking sleep from my previous posts, but even in the fucked up mental state I am in some things just can’t be ignored.
It totally blows when your worst fear turns out to be a reality and you are basically bitch slapped with the truth. The truth is something you felt, your tried denying it, but then your brain keeps showing you that it’s true. Then your heart...
2.5
That is about the number of hours of sleep I got last night.
I’m averaging about 4 a night for a couple of weeks now. Hello I believe I have chronic insomnia doctor and pills will never work, they keep hindering me. I will be out of medication after tonight and I won’t be refilling and I will deal with whatever withdraw I must. I was planning on telling the doctor later next month...
I Hate Rant
This fucking insomnia bullshit.
I hate that I found meds that worked for like 3 months then they stopped working. I also hate how these meds have had some serious effects on me.
I hate how I took the fucking pills over 4 hours ago and I’m still wide awake.
I hate how my head is throbbing and has been throbbing for what feels like forever now.
I hate how bad my eyeballs feel...
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Huh
What does it mean when you’re shot in the back in a dream? Specifically the lower back.
You don’t see it coming, because you’re alone in an empty dark room.
There is no blood coming from the wound either, it’s kind of like a post mortem wound.
Somehow you end up in a hospital where you’re lying on your stomach for days, because your bullet wound is a low priority.
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Saturday Observations
Pesto really makes everything better or turkey sausage really ain’t to shabby.
My God I’m bloated right now.
Reading really prevents you from emo live blogging all day, it doesn’t completely prevent it, but it does cut the posts down.
Being hormonal means you can polish off a small jar of Nutella in less then a week and that’s just eating it by the spoonfuls.
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stillmeonlybetter-deactivated20 asked: Say it is your last night on earth. How would you want to spend it?
Truthful Thursday
I’m negative and I know it right now. This is also one of my longest spells in the land of negative like ever. I can’t seem to break from it, I keep hoping that when this month ends something magic will happen and I can leave the downer part of me behind. (May has pretty much always been my bad time of year, I fucking hate the month of May.)
I believe that being negative is toxic to...
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Flaws
I’m avoidant when I’m sad or hurting.
I believe everything is my responsibility with my mom.
What some view as victories I view as highlights to my ultimate failures.
I’m a total Type A Personality and I believes it puts people off.
I can’t lie to someone’s face even when you know deep down that the truth will bother them.
I’m very emotional.
I’m a...
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Things I Love To Hear...
Taken from Miss_Cook who took it from someone else.
And so the story goes…
The sound of my BBM & Gtalk
My ringtone, it’s Arcade Fire’s Wake Up, the part that plays has special meaning to me.
Boots snorting, Otis use to do this and snore like a motherfucker too
The sound flip-flops make as they flip
Whispers in the ear
My dads voice, I get little videos from family sent...
Here Goes Some Random...
I hate repeating myself, so when 4 people asked me the same fucking question back to back I let my bitch shine and I ended up screaming at every last one of them. It’s bad enough I have to tolerate this at work, but to be bothered by siblings and their significant others is too much some days.
If you’re reading this don’t bother sending me another email, I won’t ever...
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some1s-sista asked: Here are the rules:
Each tagged person must post ten things about themselves. You have to choose and tag ten people. Go to their blogs and tell them you tagged them. No tag backs
Each tagged person must post ten things about themselves. You have to choose and tag ten people. Go to their blogs and tell them you tagged them. No tag backs
Some Truth
I know I haven’t been as personal here as I was in the past and honestly I don’t see that changing anytime soon. I have my reasons for wanting to edit what I put here, mostly because anyone can read this such as enemies, family, job, friends, etc. and somethings I’m not ready to let everyone in on if ever. I seriously have so much shit happening with me right now that I feel like...
“If your heart is the strongest muscle in the body, why does it break so easily?”
– Random thought of the day and I want to hear your thoughts on this people…
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My horoscope is telling me I need to go to Boston
I also need to find a romantic partner…
Are you contemplating a trip, Gemini, perhaps to a place you’ve always dreamed of visiting? If you’re in doubt as to whether or not you can do it, work out your budget and you might be surprised. Invite a friend or romantic partner to accompany you. Such a trip could boost your personal growth like nothing you’ve ever tried before....
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Truthful Bits Continued...
Before I left for work I added like even more to the last list. I edit posts at least 3x it seems, because I forget shit and now I’m at work and can’t edit, so I’ll just do a second.
I’m going to a concert next weekend and I’m totally meh about it, I’m only going because I agreed to it in all honesty.
I couldn’t tell you what is in theaters right now...
Truthful Bits
My morning routine is the same everyday, unless I’m traveling for some reason. First I check texts, then emails, then horoscopes and finally my Google Reader.
I’m so organized I even have my Google Reader set in folders. I subscribe to people I feel I have a connection with and a few random blogs like tweet ups and classyfoodmofo, so I keep my reader small and easily manageable.
I...
